Reply to "Afraid of dying"

This happened twice....once in the ambulance on the way to the hospital, and one in the ER when they got me there.  In the ambulance I faded out and was in the place I describe below, but I heard the paramedics asking if "she didn't have a son?" and then yelling in my ear that he needed me.  If you knew my ex you would understand why that was the only thing that would have dragged me back from that place I was.  In the ER when it happened again I watched them work on me from the top of the room above the table, and I remember seeing the doctor's scrub tag sticking out of the back of his shirt and thinking how these techniques they were using were cool but weren't anything to do with a person staying or leaving.  I kept that in mind that later when I worked in the hospital...interesting thought.

Both times I was simply peaceful with no emotional or physical pain.  It was the right temperature, lighting, and I felt absolutely content to be there forever, but there was a pull to eventually move on to something I was supposed to go do that would finish whatever...I'm not sure what.  There was no big white light and no particular "Godly being" there, and although I felt that there were energies around me in the distance that I might recognize, the sensations were that of simply going into a room where I rested and relaxed with no need to go anywhere else then.  I "knew" there were other places to go if I stayed and there would be others there if I wanted to be with them, but mainly the sensation and knowing was that I was simply moving on to leave my body and go on as energy.  It was the most wonderful experience both times, and  my ex agreed later that I didn't seem fully back in my body for over a year.  I really yearned to go back there...sigh.

I had close calls as a child (abusive parents) and remember starting to drift to that place a few times, but those two times as an adult were different since I went on to be on that place.  I still miss it, but when I give Reiki the feeling is similar enough to be very soothing to me.  But it was profound and changed how I felt about death and life, and it sharpened my senses definitely.