Joy you have never, NEVER heard me say I’m a Christian.
The word Christian means to be “Christ like”. You gurlfran nor anyone else is Christ like. HE was perfect.
I suggest you quit with assigning that term to your non-perfect self.
Just caz folks were first called Christians at Antioch don’t mak’em perfect.
If you want to refer to yourself as a failure to follow Christ’s example at all times, I’ll take that but you are not a Christian by the same long-shot as the res-tuv-us.